Isn't it funny how our eyes open only after a particular event occurs? Until her death or that job, we were somehow different, less evolved, just coasting through life..simply to keep from being bored.

Verge of Drowning

So I've began an interesting habit of gaining and losing perspective on life. One minute I'm in complete control- I understand that I can't see through God's eyes. I understand that this pain is not being caused for His pleasure and I understand that better times are right around the corner--And then I crash, and all that I thought I understood fades into the tide I'm dog-paddling through to get to...No where.I am alone. And I am drenched in pain and drained from fighting these waves of doubt.