Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Sick, Gross, & Ugly

If I had to pick a time from my entire existence where I shouldn't be dating someone, this would be it.
I am bruising at the slightest touch, breaking out consistently, turning an ugly shade of yellow, dizzy with too many movements, painstakingly exhausted, and loathing myself for every moment of it. My self-esteem level is somewhere in the negatives and I can't remember the last time I actually felt pretty, let alone healthy.
Not a good time for someone to get to know me. But I can't decide if that's because I'm not myself or because I'm myself at my worst.?

I need everything to just stop and time to recoup. I need my bed.